This is my first blog to write and I have to say I had a little bit of writers block. Not a good sign for someone who is preparing to write a couple of books. Oh well like they say, if not anything else writing is great therapy. So bear with me while I do my best to keep you entertained and myself a little less on the crazy side.
I am what I consider to be middle aged. That is largely being optimistic on my part. I have had my ups and downs and will soon be writing about a lot of that. But for the purposes of this first blog, I wanted a place to put my quotes I write when I am sad and upset. If there is one thing I hate, its being depressed and sad. But it seems that it is winning the majority of my emotions lately. Refer back to the first sentence of being middle aged, (clear throat).
My mind is constantly running at a fast pace or record speed. And sometimes it runs in circles. But for some reason, when I am sad and upset, I can spit out some writings that make perfect sense at the time and just seem amazing to me. I will let you be the judge of that one.
First, you have to know why I was upset and brought myself to this type of writing. My love has a brain injury. And even though he has great logic and is extremely intellegent, there are times that I mess up and say things that he just goes overboard on. And when this happens there is no calming him down for hours and sometimes days. Also, he has issues with my relationship with my son. There are reasons I am the way I am as there are reasons I do the things I do. Some things may not seem right and in fact, they might not be right. Some may consider them to be "spoiling the child". This misunderstanding we had was over my son asking for a computer as a gift for Christmas. And as I mentioned it to my love, after he just bought him a car that is still sitting in the driveway, well lets just say he lost it in the first thinking that "now he wants a computer too"? At this moment, my overwhelming feeling of doom and despair came over my body. All I wanted to do at that moment was take the darn comment back and wished I had never mentioned anything. I got scared and immediatley responded with, "I was gonna pay for it with my money". Oh my goodness, lets just really drive your body into the quicksand of blurting things out of your mouth that make no sense at all and try to back pedal a bit. Well, it didn't work because the way his mind works now with an injury is take that and run with it, bringing in all past feelings that weren't mentioned before that he disagrees with. Now, I am not blogging to "fight for I'm right". Because I should not have said a word about it. I am just wanting a place to put these darn quotes I wrote during my crying my eyes out phase. So here it goes.
Do not take "forgive me I'm sorry" for granted; for one day she might be rendered silent.
If anger is defined as the response to threat or harm; then I should ask, what are you so afraid of?
Your toplofty approach brings many hours of silence and a depressive atmosphere. Was this what you were hoping for?
When approaching someone with a concern or disagreement, don't forget to bring a resolution with you.
Anger is handled by adults through discussion, teenager through silence and resentment and a child through attitude and arrogance. How are you handling yours?
Its sad when unconditional love is misinterpreted as spoiling the child.
The lack thereof from one parent can create much guilt for the other parent.
Gaining legacy through relationships is priceless!
Actions speak louder than words; silence creates much fear, thus words should never go without saying.
(see below for explanation of this quote)
Sometimes when a woman says, "please talk to me", she just needs your arms around her holding her tight with no words at all.
When you are mad and ignore and turn away from your woman without answering or saying a word, she dies a little on the inside from fear of unknown.
Fear creates anxiety which creates unrational thinking which brings me back to "it should never go without saying"
After you make your point and I make my apology, now is the time to return to OUR world and leave YOUR world behind. You gain no brownie points by continuing to be mad. But you end up damaging my spirit, and what will happen if it finally brakes?
And last one for this blog is...
You can't scare others into listening, understanding and respect. But you gain respect by listening, understanding and respecting others.
Its so funny how your mind works when you feel a bit down. But now you can understand why I titled my blog page "The Philosophical Mind of Me". I really do try to fix things. My mind works in a way to try to solve issues or if I can't fix it, then find some underlying meaning to all of it. Its just me I guess. I know there are some things my love would like to change about me. But for the most part I believe some of these things he gets angry with me about are the same things that made him fall in love with me. At the end of the day, love is all anyway. I love him and strangely enough, he loves me. We both try to do good, we are happy within and even with some differences still to work through I can proudly say, I am a blessed woman.
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